Reading: The Pursuit of God by A.W. Tozer
Today I have started reading The Pursuit of God by A.W. Tozer. I came across with the book on a Bible study forum (I can’t remember which) where they offered it as a free reading material.
Right now I am 28 per cent of the processing, and I have digested two chapters of it. The first was about the paradox of seeking God - we seek Him with all our longings inside us. We have an idea of what we are missing, so we partly know (=have found) God, yet we need to find it again. (Tozer have much better English than I do).
The second chapter is about another paradox - that we have to lose our lives in order to find it. This same idea is shown in the story of Abraham who had to think about giving up his own son just to God give him a lesson about possessing. Key message: you may have everything but you should never possess anything.
Seems blurred. Read the book.
(Source: photo.goodreads.com)
That sec is me
Now it’s official. I want to escape from all the busy thoughts of my boring life, I want to get free from all the pressure I feel when thinking about living is a society of mine. I want to set free, to live in a hut (or shack) in Alaska, or somewhere hidden from the place I live now.
This is a sound I like to listen to right now…
I think that I can learn to fly - I see it in my Father’s Eyes. (Ask Embla - Father’s Eyes)
Lost in Ideologies
Today is an aweful day for me. I had an extremely severe quarrell with my mother and the worst part is that the chance for changing is not yet to be seen.
There is something in quarrells - that is a state of mind, when your anger brings up things deeply buried in your mind. Well, lots of pessivism, no chance for hope, hatred and anxiety have been digged out of my mind today. And that is how most people behave in a situation like this, so far it’s okay. What is not okay, is that so far my anxiety, hatred and all these negative feelings had been suppressed in me so far. It feels like my ideologies kept my senses in a limit that failed to see the truth about me.
The truth is that I can be a very aggressive at times, I am a hateful person with lots of energy that can burst out anytime.
It is neither good nor bad. It is just me and until I am aware of these features of me, I can handle them and most certainly will.
Ideologies are good as they show you something you would like to be. But remember that you are not your idol and may never be.
a little vocab
tumbler noun
3 (old-fashioned)an acrobat who performs somersaults (= a jump in which you turn over completely in the air)
tumble verb
4 [intransitive] + adverb/preposition to move or fall somewhere in a relaxed, uncontrolled, or noisy way
Re-discovering tumblr
I have been here. I have loved it here, yet I left tumblr. I felt inspired here by those stylish pictures, I felt this is the place for self-expression, yet I decided to stop blogging here.
Now I am back, as I thought I should give it another try.
It’s Easter Sunday. I considered Easter the start, the restart of something. So now, I hope my blog will resurrect with Christ today. :)
I just… need … want to feel like I’m in control and when I don’t, that makes me mad. And maybe I am mad a lot, because I don’t know if you’ve noticed but there are things you can’t control in life.
Lynette Scavo in Desperate Housewives S06E13
July the 8th, 2010
This day has been extremely special for me. It was a perfect example of roller-coster, it was coloured by lots of twists and turns. First, I’ve got to know quite a number of young radio broadcaster-to-bes and I can tell you we both had a huge impact on each other. Next I was yelled at for saying my opinion and was put in an emotional environment where I had never been earlier before.
I think I was trained a lot this day. I think I liked it. All the moments, all the outcomes. You too have a day like this.
